My name is Angelina Durless, people call me Madame Red.
It is because my hair and clothes are red.
I lost all of those that I love… which makes me feel crazy.
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Why do people always have the things that I cannot even reach?
“What… what did you say?” I could feel my hands holding the cup were shivering.
“We are going to get married soon.” He held my sister’s hand and kissed it as he said it.
You guys won’t know how I feel…
However I do understand though, we do not have a choice in this age.
It is usual to accept it and we must obey if our parents choose our partners for us.
They tell us to marry, we have to.
I love my sister, but at the same time, I hate her too.
Why must she always get those things that are so far away from me!
We have the same parents, but why is it only me that inherited our father’s red hair?
“Your hair is so pretty. They’re pretty as flowers.”
That was the first time, I started to not hate my red hair.
That was the first time, I learnt how to love others, other than my sister.
Have you ever imagined how I felt, when I noticed you two are in an intimate relationship?
My sister knows I love him.
Surely, no matter how dull you are, it would not be that hard to realize that?
Yes… you did realize that started from a long time ago, but you just could not lie to yourself.
You could not hide your feelings, you could not ignore them.
That was what you wanted to say
I know, humans are selfish.
People always say how much they love a person and what they could do for them, but eventually they were doing those things for their own good only.
“Ann… I’m really”
“Don’t say that. Please, just don’t say anything. I know what you’re thinking, but let’s just let it go.” I put my finger on my sister’s lips, stopping her from saying the words that didn’t want to hear.
At that moment, I did not think it necessary to say anything.
Sometime later, I met another person. Another one that I might love.
In truth, I started to go out with him because he and that person alike.
I mean inside, not appearance.
Their personality.
They were both gentle and cultivated… and could tolerate what others would not be able to.
I felt like I am a human, when I was with them.
Also, both of them said they liked my red hair.
Maybe all I wanted was just someone that can accept me, as myself.
I wanted someone to stay beside me, who will just look only at me.
Maybe that was the only thing I wanted?
“Angelina… will you stay with me forever?”
I answered “yes”. Indeed I still could not understand why he asked me to marry him.
He knew it, that I was always looking through him, seeking for someone else.
The person living in my heart… was not him.
“Watch out…! Ann!”
On a sudden day, our carriage crashed with somebody’s car.
Our baby was gone. So was he.
Don’t leave me alone. Didn’t you say that we will always be together?
Then why are you gone now?
Didn’t you say that you don’t mind that I love someone else?
“Is it just a joke? Urh…!” I lost control, then I swept the flowers and other items onto the floor.
“Don’t… calm down! Ann! Angelina!” “She’s right, calm down sweetheart.”
“Hahah… calm down? You two telling me to calm down?! How can I do that? I’ve got nothing now! Nothing! Not my husband, not my baby! Not even my… uterus! I can’t have another baby anymore!”
I had just realized that relying on someone is so terrifying.
I needed that person… a lot more than I had ever thought.
When did this all happen? When did I start to lay my eyes on him?
Oh… no, I should know that more than the others.
Until the accident, I did not recognize his importance.
Maybe people always desire something that they cannot touch.
The further they are, the more you love it… and hatred.
The things that are close to you are like rubbish.
I think those untouchables seem beautiful because you can’t get close to them… and you know nothing about them.
Humans are not perfect.
They just cannot be!
People won’t recognize how precious they are… until they are lost.
“Rachel… Vincent……”
I cannot believe… who is it… how could they do this to me?
Is it that entertaining to take people from me, one by one?
What do I have left…?
I became a doctor, after I’ve lost all my loves.
At least I want to do something for the others… so that they can live happily.
However… I have just found out that all humans are rubbish.
They should all die.
What kind of women are they? They just throw away those things that other people cannot have.
How can they say that? Babies couldn’t make choices by themselves but they are still alive.
Those husband stealers are wicked witches.
If you do not want them, do not go to bed with men.
If this is the case… I will do it by myself.
I will get rid of all of those bad women.
If you do not want them I will get rid of them… but you will have to go with them.
”Go to hell!!”
I’m so stupid… I shouldn’t show any sympathy to others.
Even if I have to work this out by myself I’m still doing it.
I’ll get rid of those evil prostitutes with my own two hands!
-Phantomhive House-
It’s been a long time since the last time I’ve seen Ciel, my dearest nephew.
So I decided to go visit him and his new butler.
“Oh hohoho Ciel! How have you been?”
“Madame Red… I told you many times don’t mess up my hair.” Ciel was pushing me away but I can see the little redness on his cheeks.
Oh my lovely boy.
It was a miracle.
Everybody died in that fire but only Ciel was alive.
Is it because the angels are protecting him?
Ciel is the precious one left beside me.
If I lose him, I’m really not going to live any more…
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My name is Grell Sutcliffe.
I am a Grim Reaper from the dispatch Management Division and recently my work decreased so I am a little bored.
So I decided to go upstairs… to the human world.
I have been a human before, so I know they are interesting.
I wonder how everything is nowadays?
I’ve heard that the Queen controls the world… but I do not think that is the case.
There should be something a lot more amusing, don’t you think so?
Not surprisingly, I found an interesting woman that can fill up my time.
She herself is a boring person, but what she does always amazes me.
-Dispatch Management Division-
“My dearest William, I’m going.” Grell finished his words with a blown kiss.
“Please… can you leave, immediately?” As usual, William used his scythe, which is a double-sided clipper to adjust his glasses, so that they do not fall off.
“Oh…just once, can’t you go along with my act? You’re so heartless!” He is still tempting to swoop down on him.
“Grell Sutcliffe… don’t make me say it again, I…”
“Okay, okay, I’m going! Don’t miss me too much… honey.” Grell could feel the murderous atmosphere coming from the man so he escaped just in time.
-Human world-
“It’s so boring… mainly because there are not many handsome boys in the human world. Well, what should I do now… em?” Grell was grumbling sitting on top of the roof but then he saw something unusual happening on the ground.
“Oh well oh well… looks like something interesting is happening.” So that is why many people’s souls are flying away rapidly in this recent period.
“Hi! You did a thorough job didn’t you?” Grell jumped off the roof and spoke to the lady in a deep red.
“Huh…?! Who is it?!” It seems like the lady did not expect someone to appear suddenly so she was shocked and turn her neck round towards Grell.
“Oh oh oh don’t be that afraid! I won’t bite you. I’m only interested in handsome people but you’re not, so…” He blew a kiss again.
“What is funny about this…?! Go die…!”
“Oh my dear! I didn’t think humans like you have the potential to kill a reaper.” Grell grabbed the lady’s surgical knife, using his other hand to hold her neck.
If you look closer you can see that the lady is in red, even if you could not see the blood.
It was hard to figure out where the blood ends and her body begin.
…but Grell Sutcliffe loves red.
He loves nothing other than red.
“I’m not interested in women… but I like you.” Grell pulled the lady’s red hair and said.
“What are you…” The lady tried to resist but it did not work.
“Hum… what do you think of starting a partnership?”
Grell Sutcliffe is a grim reaper, so he does not think much even when someone dies in front of him.
Madame Red’s situation is a little difficult to explain.
Maybe she had been through a lot of inhuman experiences so she turned into a ‘reaper’.
If Grell said he would give her a help, why should she decline?
Isn’t it a good idea?
At that moment, she just thought like that.
Simple.
Grell doesn’t like women, but he just loved Madame Red’s murdering act.
So Grell Sutcliffe became Madame Red’s assistant.
A lady called Angelina Durless.
These two started to appear frequently and people from the news called them ‘Jack the Ripper’.
-One month later-
“Mr Spears, Mr Sutcliffe was… please read this report!” The little reaper was too anxious and he left the letter in front of William’s desk.
“What happened? ” He opened the letter.
“Grell you idiot… don’t leave me a this mess!” William was usually calm but he is filled with anger now.
“Madame Red I’m going out now… you can finish the work by yourself. By the way I’m going to your sleep at your nephew’s villa.” There were pink hearts popping from his eyes when he finished this sentence.
“Sleep at Ciel’s villa? What? I can’t believe it you are so shameless! You just can’t leave him alone…” Madame Red held her surgical knife tight and walked backwards while speaking.
“No… no way! Of course I’m not interested in that little kid! My target is my lovely Sebastian!” Grell got mad.
“Oh… you should have said it earlier. I just thought you’re abnormal… well something similar.”
“Don’t you think you’re being a bit rude?”
“Just go…! Be careful about Sebastian though.”
Everybody knows who is ‘Jack the Rippers’ now.
That’s all Sebastian’s fault.
He’s too clever and mysterious.
Me and Madame Red knew Ciel was snooping around about our case, but we didn’t know he’s gone that far already.
So… we are in this kind of dilemma now.
Oh well, maybe it’s not me just Madame Red.
I don’t think this situation makes me feel interestied but that’s all.
No other additional feelings.
“What are you doing? Kill him, Madame Red.” Grell raised his voice and there was impatience on his face, but Madame Red did not see that.
“No… I can’t! I cannot do this! He’s my…! O…” Madame Red spurted out a lot of blood and she couldn’t finish what she wanted to say.
“Don’t try to be sympathetic. I thought you weren’t such a superficial woman. I thought you were different but it looks like I’m wrong. I’m too disappointed in you. ” He pulled out his chainsaw-like scythe from her body and blood splattered everywhere.
Ciel’s your nephew so you can’t kill him?
Or you’re going to say he’s your son?
Don’t be ridiculous.
No matter how intimate your relationships are, you still have to live individually.
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My name is Ciel Phantomhive.
My parents died when I was a child.
They must have been murdered… by someone, or some kind of organizations I guess.
That was the reason why I made a deal with the demon.
I named him Sebastian, and gave him a new position that would be convenient whenever I need him.
Sebastian the demon, my new butler.
It was just the right time because Tanaka was too old for work.
However, he told me he had no place to go to, so I allowed him to stay at my house.
I work for the Queen so that I can get updated news… to help me find out who murdered my parents.
I will need Sebastian’s help for that.
All I need is the truth.
The earthling might think I am crazy but I do not care.
Especially after my last relative, Madame Red has died… this kind of feeling just gets stronger.
Madame Red… or maybe I should call her Aunt Angela.
She’s not my mother, but I know she treat me as her son.
I… I loved her too.
To an orphan like me, she’s my relief.
She gave me all the things she could.
What should I do if everyone I knew has died?
If you ask about Lizzie, my fiancée I would say yes she is important to me, but not as much as the people who are no longer by my side.
Elizabeth Middleford really tried hard to become my family, but I couldn’t put her into my heart.
I am unlucky, but at the same time I am also fortunate.
In fact people would think I am crazy to consider myself as a lucky person, but I am certain that not a person knows Sebastian’s real identity, otherwise they are dead already.
I said I am unlucky, because I lost my dearest parents when I was just a few years old.
However I am lucky because I am a child but it is still the truth, that I am a noble.
An untouchable person at the top of the hierarchy.
I am a child but people unwilling to accept this could do nothing to me because I am working for the Queen and I have a person to help me at night.
I was on my way to my Aunt’s funeral.
She died… because of me.
Sebastian said it was not my fault but it was.
She might not have to die if I was killed.
“You shouldn’t have been born!”
When I heard this, I just couldn’t move.
How should I react?
I have never thought this would happen.
I have never thought… she would have said something like that.
I was right.
She did not hurt me.
However people didn’t know that I actually just hope I could be wrong...
Even in that kind of dilemma.
I was not frightened because of death, but I would be hurt if what she said to me is real.
Madame Red is my Aunt, but you can also say she is my mother.
Yes, maybe this is the more appropriate word that should be used.
As I stepped my foot into the Church, noises started to spread, from corner to corner.
“Look at him… look what he brought! The red dress! He didn’t even know that he should be respectful to the dead!”
I ignored what the others were saying, there was only one important thing I desired to do.
No matter how the others think, I knew this is the only thing I could do for her.
I carried the long and grand red dress and started towards the glass coffin.
I used this dress to cover her, covered her body clothed in white.
I took out a flower from my pocket and put it on her red hair.
“White doesn’t suit you. You look beautiful only in Red only, Madame Red.” I used my hand to comb her hair and kissed her on the cheeks as I said this.
“Sebastian, I’m leaving now.” As I said, I jumped off the coffin.
-Phantomhive house-
“So, what are you doing here Lau?” I stared at Lau.
Lau is a noble from China who owns his own company and do trades with people… apparently.
He’s a mysterious man who always keeps his eyes closed and wouldn’t show any expressions on his face.
Usually, he just smiled without heart.
“Oh… I was just wondering who killed Madame Red. On the news it says she was killed by ‘Jack the Ripper’ but I think there might be another story?” Smiled, again.
“I don’t know what you are talking about.” I looked at his eyes, although I knew I would not be able to read anything.
“Why didn’t you kill her?” Lau pressed both of his hands on my desk and questioned me.
Yes, questioned me.
Like I was a suspect.
“I” Before I could say anything, he interrupted me.
“Ha, just a joke.” He smiled at me and relaxed his hands.
“See you next time, Ciel.” He waved his hands at me as he left the door.
After he left, I turned back and opened the curtain and stared down at some point.
“What is going on? What do you want, Lau?” I grabbed the curtain strongly and closed it violently.
“I won’t let anyone bother me…” I drank one mouth of earl grey and I looked out the window again.
“Sebastian!”
“Yes, my lord.” Sebastian appeared and kneeled down.
There was a silence without any reply.
“Lord?” Sebastian felt strange so he raised his head.
“…Prepare a carriage. We’re going to see the Queen.”
“Certainly, my lord.”
We headed out, but not towards the Queen’s palace.
Before visiting the Queen, we should go to see that person first.
-Undertaker’s shop-
I took off my hat after I have stepped into the room.
“Oh, welcome Ciel.” He gave me a big smile and meant it to look friendly but because his front hair covered his eyes nobody could see him properly.
“It is nice that you’ve come to see me but as you can see I am a bit busy right now, you know…” As usual, he was looking at the parts of some dead bodies and counting them, which made it quite a weird picture.
“I think you know why I am here.” I stared at him.
“…………Ciel, it isn’t good for you to have your hands in something you should not know.” He stopped his hands.
“Are you helping me?”
“Sorry I cannot help you further more.”
“Alright, we’re leaving Sebastian.” As I said, Sebastian helped to put my hat on again.
What am I going to do now?
Go ask the Queen?
No… I have just realized it was an extremely stupid act that I have just done.
“Huh… it looks like there’s still a long way to go.” I sighed.
“I will be right beside you… until your wish come true, my lord.” He said and he smiled like an angel.
Sometimes I think angels and demons are just the same.
No matter what the price is, I will achieve it... until my last breath.
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